and so i think about the past 11 years i spent doom scrolling & retweeting & shouting into the endless void. i think about the first customized theme and background i made of my high school best friends who i never talked to since. i think about the...
waking up on the first day of a long weekend. actually liking the way your hair looks in the mirror. your grandmother cooking a meal you love. a game going on sale. having a fully charged phone before leaving the house. hearing your favorite song on the taxi radio....
I run into a friend at a bar and a waiter comes by to get our orders. The waiter smiles and asks, ‘What would you like, sir?’ I freeze and my friend grins, placing a warm hand on the waiter’s arm. ‘I’m a ma’am,’ she says, as if she’s used to correcting others this way...
‘You’re terrible at this,’ you groan as I tie the end of your braided hair. I huff and roll my eyes. A ‘thank you’ would have been more welcome. I watch as you gently caress the knots, humming in deep thought. ‘Maybe I should cut my hair after all,’ you say. ‘Whatever...
You call yourself ‘self-sufficient’ but who is it you coax to get off a comfy bed at 11 PM to accompany you in grabbing discounted pre-packaged meals at the grocery? Who is it that indulges you when you choose true crime documentaries night after night? Who is it that...
Remember when you said you ‘loved me a little less’ and all I felt in the days that followed was jagged icebergs pulling my soul down the deepest caverns? What I mean to say is that I’ve never been this empty and adrift when you found promise in a new horizon I...